I have been asked why I have not been writing. I have been ashamed to admit why. It is silly and super vain.
I read a woman’s blog that my daughter follows. She said her blog has been slow of late. Her readership has been down to “only 250,000 a month.” WHAT? That stunned me. I have probably a dozen followers. Then I realized I am doing this for all the wrong reasons. So I quit.
What are my wrong reasons? I want attention. I want people to notice me, to say, “Hey, good job”. I also hoped to make some money. In short, pride. Which is sin. I knew I needed to step back.
For the past several months when the Lord has revealed something really stirring to me, I have kept it to myself. When something fun or amazing happened I just enjoyed it and left it there. For awhile I wrote ‘drafts’; but I had even stopped doing that.
What are the right reasons to write blog posts? I am not sure. I do know that I need to do all things for the glory of God.
I read this verse in Isaiah:
“Rise up, you women who are at ease, hear my voice;
you complacent daughters, give ear to my speech.” Isaiah 32:9
And I knew it was time to blog again. If I only have 3 readers, (thank you, Sarah, Abby, and Lindsay!) that’s okay. There are times God’s word speaks so clearly to me I just feel like I’ll explode if I don’t share it. Blogging is my outlet.
So, out of what I truly desire to be a humble heart, I am beginning again.
“If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and abide in his love.” John 15:10